A Documentary by Astrid Feringa
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About the project
LOCKLINEThrough the clinical logbook of a former GGZ patient, this documentary critically explores the impact of hospitalisation in a mental health facility.

What is sane, and what is insane? And who decides that? In the short documentary CRISIS, a former GGZ patient responds to the medical logbook that has been kept on her during her hospitalisation in a closed “crisis” facility. It becomes clear that there are many discrepancies between the data as presented in the logbook, and her own experience of this time. 

Background — In 2012, Lindsay was hospitalized for 3 months within a Dutch mental healthcare facility (GGZ). She went there in a state of crisis, but instead of getting better, she came out of it in a state of disillusion. She recently requested the medical logbook of her time there: a 22-page document in which the staff daily noted observations of her and her behaviour.

When reading this document, the roots of her disillusion became clear; the logbook paints the picture of a person in which she doesn't recognize herself: manipulative and provoking. But also someone who is clearly asking for help — for example, in the form of therapy — which she is not getting. 

Her hospitalisation has been determative for the course of her life afterwards, in which she is still dealing with (the consequences of) a mental diagnosis, as well as with the trauma that has been caused by and during this hospitalisation.

The logbook — How can there be such a difference between the official documentation and own experience? And what is your side of the story actually worth, when your behaviour and thoughts are being framed through the lens of your diagnoses? 

Guided by the clinical logbook, CRISIS investigates the impact of Lindsay’s hospitalisation trajectory. By allowing space for her personal experience, and by questioning the status of the official documentation as “true”, the film aims to break with the stigmatizing and hierarchical relation between institution and patient. Where the Lindsay from the logbook demonstrates a continuous battle for autonomy, in this version, she is the one directing.   

Why this film?  — Lindsay her story doesn’t stand by itself, but is exemplary for a wider, structural issue. With this film we hope to actively contribute to the ongoing social debate on the reform of mental healthcare, and to imagine alternative ways of mental healthcare in which de-stigmatisation and emancipation are key focus points. 

In short, we hope that this film is the start of more. Therefore, everything that is crowdfunded beyond our target amount, will be used to start a platform and long-term project which will be aimed at these focus points. 


The major part of the budget has been provided by GoShort and Omroep Gelderland, on condition of a successful crowdfunding campaign through CineCrowd. Sponsored by ADF Stichting. 

Quote that inspired the maker

Through my hospitalisation, I experienced literally and figuratively what it’s like to not be a part of society anymore. Whilst on paper, the focus of this type of healthcare should be to actually make you feel part of society again. I realised: theory and reality are not compatible.
Lindsay Stegenga